Ever since I was really young I wasn't the most popular and was never really liked by classmates.
Which was also the reason why growing up I felt insecured of how I look and my confidence was very low.
I was bullied and teased a lot been called names like "four eyes" and in one particular bullying incident on Facebook someone even told me "sana kunin na lang ni Lord". Because of these bullying incidents I transfered to many schools. From ICA in San Juan,to COLF then VCIS finally homeschool till I graduated high school.
Honestly ,it wasn't easy for me because I was bullied and teased a lot .I felt unloved at times because of this but it wasn't until when I was in Grade 5 when a friend of my dad invited us to a church called Victory in the Fort. I didn't understand it yet but I had fun because of the KC bucks. It wasn't until the mid year of my sixth grade when I started attending Victory Greenhills. I remember going to Kids Church and I was twelve . I was sitting in the back with one of the teachers named Natalie Yip. We started chatting and became good friends. But our friendship grew deeper the finally she started One to One with me. I think it was at least 2-3 years until finally finished my Victory Weekend October 23,2011 .
During the time I was in my darkest hour (grade 5 to 6) I tried to figure out what was wrong with me. Why I felt like everyone was against me . I fail to realize that I was loved by my family and friends but mostly God. It wasn't until the cyber bullying incident on facebook a year after that He made me realize that I am loved and accepted as I am and that I'm beautiful in God's eyes.
Most of the time when I tell this to my friends now and share my story one of the common things the would ask me is "Max ,didn't you bother revenging against them?"
I would say it's because revenge will do no good. It will only make the bullying worst. I will get hurt even more and after all that bullying I never wanted to go back there again. But mostly it was God and His love that stopped me before I even thought of revenging against them.
I will look back at this bullying as a learning lesson . I learned who my true friends are and standing up for myself.
God thank you for being there for me during those times I felt alone or lonely. And thank you for changing me from being this insecured and unconfident person to this person who feels love ,more confident and secured because I know you will always be there for me and will not do anything that would harm me. I know that you are doing so many amazing things in my life and I thank you for that.
This verse is one of my favorite verses cause it helps me get through my day especially when I'm stressed .
Phil.4:13 "I could do all things through Christ who strengthens me. "
To end this I want to say thank you to my family ,my mentors and to my friends who were there for me through thick and thin. (You know who you are ) .I love all of you :)
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Maxine! I am so blessed by your blog. Thank you for sharing! xx Ji
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